i have surrendered my ego to fed yours.

......all my fantasies died when you said yours.

watch your mouth

there's this sort of patience where you can tolerate some sarcasms, jokes, nasty remarks made about you by your friends because you accidentally did something funny, or you acted stupid etc, but on the other hand, there are times when when it's enough, it is enough.

in reality, i am considered as the funny one amongst my friends, i do not claim this myself but most of my friends have agreed that i'm practically the spontaneous joker in the group. i tend to say funny things without even trying and i make jokes not because i make them, but well, they just come out randomly and out of the blue. well the issue is, you know how people laugh and say things like "bodoh la kau ni..hahah..." or " hahaha bangang dowhh kau nii!" after you've made a joke or said something hilarious. yes okay i know i can be funny at times, and say the darnedest things but hey, you don't have to go and say, "bodoh la kau niii julietteeeee" or "babi sial hahaha kau bodohh juliettte" all the time! once or twice i can accept it. and after all, i was the one who practically made your day by you laughing your ass off and got your mind rid of depressing things. and now you want to call me stupid? maybe you said it unconsciously and it is like an automatic respond every time you hear something funny, but what the fuck? be considerate. i am not simply complaining because i'm a whiny prick whatsoever, i'm letting this all out because the blatant truth is, it kinda hurt my feelings to be called stupid! imagine how i feel to be called 'bodoh/bangang' everytime you cheered someone up and then as a thank you, you are called stupid! grrrrrr. and plus, if you say it so many times, in the end, you'll end up being stupid yourself. you don't want that to happen now do you?

Quite frankly, i'm not stupid. i know things, i've seen places, met a billion different characters of people, in fact, i do better in life. so watch your mouth the next time i make you laugh your fucking neck off. i do jokes because i fucking hate seeing people stressing out and taking things too seriously. you better appreciate me before i walk the fuck out of that door and then you'll realise what a boring , gray, dull and humourless life you have!

undercover martyr

lately, i've been taking photos of the clothes i wear to go out everyday so i can actually see how it looks without having to rely on the mirror. i know that this does not make sense, but it does for me. i put on this outfit a couple of days ago because it was such a sunny day & i wore it with a pair of my favourite pink Ipanema flip flops for a walk around town. the cotton denim shirt is just in case if the weather suddenly cools down...

i've been pretty lazy this week, hence the outfit kinda explains it. easy and good to go!

for the lovers

if you are madly in love and is in a serious relationship for years, this is a song with great lyrics to dedicate to your other half.

In the air I flew
Through the clouds I fall
Through the country I've walked
In front of temples I've stood
Before the ocean I pray
And I said your name

In the air I flew
Through the clouds I fall
And all the things I've tried to say
Were never easy to explain
They were always meant for you

And all the memories that were made
For years and years
I've chased this day
They were always for you
Always for you

In the air I breathe
Through the clouds I see
Through the cities I've walked
In the castles I dreamed
On the mountain I climb
When I call your name

In the air I flew
Through the clouds I've fell
And all the things I've tried to change
Were never easy to contain
They were always meant for you
Always for you

And all the memories will never fade
For years and years
In my heart you'll stay
It was always for you
Always for you
Always for you

And all the pieces that remain
They will build a place for us to stay
They were always meant for you
Always for you

And all the chances that we take
For years and years
We'll have this place
They were always for you
Always for you

the band is great, i've been listening to them for a few years now and they're coming to KL this september just a few days before Hari Raya, i'm contemplating whether to go or not because i know there will be piles of work just oozing out begging me to complete them.


this is going to be tough.

thrift much?

rm 1 earrings, rm 20 owl shirt from jonker, ieda's rm10 heels,
rm19 grey leggings & $15 Casio gift watch from a friend in Atlanta.

i love being a girl. i can easily find nice & pretty things that can cost for less than rm50 around KL. not only they look good, they tend to fool a lot of people into thinking that i bought them from a proper boutique! but don't get me wrong, of course i do enjoy the occasional splurge in shopping malls, but when i know the right places to buy good stuff, why spend more when i can use the extra money on other things like food? plus, it's not so much fun if you buy a top and everyone else has the same one & they know where you bought it. quite frankly, i like it when i wear what everyone doesn't have. i'm sure it is the same for every girl that are into clothes/fashion.

& so my weekend had been eventful, ate a lot, laughed and talked and gossiped a lot, & saw all of the wonderful people that i wanted to see :)